I Am Capable

What to write? I ask myself. My fingers tap impatiently on the keyboard, type a word or two, erase them, then try again. I stare at the screen intently, my mind sorting out the subjects I should write, yet nothing comes to mind.

This small case of writer's block is trivial, for there is more than plenty to write about. My musical progress, Spanish studies; I could even write about writing itself.
But perhaps what hinders me are my doubts in expressing my inner critical thinking, my musical struggles and victories, and mainly, just allowing myself to write what is in me.
The fear of not writing good enough has crippled me in my blogging journey. But it doesn't stop there. The fear of lacking true musicianship, the fear of rejection, and the fear of not measuring up to my expectations have all played a part these last few months, but not anymore.
Last year, I conquered some of my greatest fears. This year, I come to conquer even more.
There are stories that need to be told, music that needs to be heard, art that needs to be seen and felt with the heart. Yahweh gave me my talents for a reason, and I needn't hide them away because I feel amateur in many of them. Yahweh gave me a desire to meet lots of people, but I shouldn't bury that desire for the fear of past experiences repeating. This is a new day, with new people and He assuring me day by day  it's well worth the risk.
We all start somewhere and this is where I'm starting.
To kick the habit of negative thinking, this week I'm gonna call it quits and proclaim in the face of all my fears that I AM CAPABLE.
It's tough breaking old thought patterns, but definitely not impossible. After all, incorporating good thoughts never hurt anyone. Why not dwell on the things that nourish our souls? Driving us to a better future?
This week, Tomorrow, Today... I AM CAPABLE. And what's makes this even better, is that you are too. We are all capable, and we all possess the drive to succeed in anything we set are mind to. We are more than conquers, and we are fearfully and wonderfully made. I am capable, you are capable. We all are.

"Finally brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy- mediate on these things." Philip. 4:8

Have a wonderful feast everyone,
I love you all and pray for you earnestly, stay strong and keep me in your prayers.
-Abbie

Poetry: Reflections from The Rooftoppers

Hello everyone!

Here is a recent poem I wrote based on the novel, 'The Rooftoppers' by Katherine Rundell. For fellow cello lovers, musicians, or just readers in general, it's a fun read with an amazing voice and a keen sense of imagination.You should check it out! Thanks!

above the sleeping city,
atop the rooftops where
a girl looks for her mother
as her cello plays somewhere.

her heart is pounding faster,
her feet can scarce keep pace
the dreams of her existence
were to come now face to face.

perhaps this was the moment,
her body quaked and shivered.
she'd finally meet the woman
who released her to the river.

~Abigail

So What's Been Up with Me?

Hey guys!
I know it's been awhile since I've posted anything on The Girl in Curls, but now since I've graduated I'm aiming on scheduling and purposefully completing the tasks and goals I have set for this year.

So what's been up with me?

I have been reading quite a few books, which is a big accomplishment for me! Also, my writings in poetry/stories have expanded and I plan on continuing my writings as I am developing a novel currently that I aim to complete. Whether it's 100 pages or 300 hundred, the goal is to finish it and also keep you guys updated on what's been going on with me in the process.
I've also been pretty musically involved lately, engaging in voice development, learning finger style guitar, and I aim to continue my music theory studies and also give my violin and cello some more attention.
Spanish will definitely be a big priority again as I shoot for further study in the language. And I'm planning on finishing my Puebla within the following weeks.
As for what to do next in education, I'm praying whether or not it is the Father's will for me to go to college, if so, I would major in music for sure. There are so many opportunities for me, but I'm not sure which to take and where Yahweh will lead. I've also been considering getting a job and transportation so I could travel more. Just wanting to bring in some income, ya know?
I'd like to post more music/covers on my Youtube channel to be a bit more active there, and to be more available for my followers and subscribers.
Also I'm trying to find a way I can produce more music for you guys in the future. So many goals, but I'll take it one at a time.
And a final goal is to meet people, get to know them better, and come out of my introverted shell which will be difficult, but not impossible.

So what are your goals for this year?